random ramblings

tomorrow i will grieve for you


i woke up to a very heartbreaking news, a friend’s sudden passing, gone too soon. 

for a moment i was staring at the message, feeling vulnerable, on the verge of weeping

but i was hours away presenting a case study, i’m an anxious public speaker you see

it was a dilemma my hypothalamus had to take charge with

i switch off, and carried on with the day as planned

i am scared of myself whenever that has to happen

i feel detached, i feel like i have a heart of stone

but i am a nurse you see

i’ve seen death, like death was like a box of chocolate (forrest gump, 1994)

and often i’m too swamped with work that i do not have time to process my emotions

its sad i know, but often i have to compartmentalise my feelings

too often i fear i mastered it like its an art


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